Monthly Archives: July 2010

Better than a Doggie Treadmill

Brian's new method of exercising the mutt


Alright, Already

Okay, this is getting ridiculous. I know, I know. I haven’t been listening.  But I got the message, loud and clear this time.

This morning I work up with a summer cold. What the hell is that about? That’s somebody’s idea of a really cruel joke.  It’s a bajillion degrees outside, and yet you wake up feeling like you’ve smoked a pack of Lucky Strikes, slightly sweaty and feverish, with a headache that won’t quit.  Sounds like a bad hangover, right? Except it doesn’t get better after you drink coffee and eat something greasy. You feel like you’re melting from the inside out AND the outside in. Awesome.

I digress.

So, I’ve been fighting aforementioned cold for a few days, figuring it’s allergies (I guess it still could be, but another cruel joke, world).  I am lying in bed, listening to my heart drum in my ears like it does when my head is all stuffed up. And yet, I can still hear Emmett doing that thing that he does when he’s been awake for a while and waiting–he sighs. A lot.  So I get out of bed, get dressed, strap the leash on the mutt and begrudgingly (and with a sneer toward my still sleeping husband) leave the house.

We may have walked twenty minutes.  Maybe.  We were nearing an intersection on our regular route, and he did what he always does; he sat down. Right in front of me. I don’t know where the hell I was, but evidently my mind was far, far away, because I just kept going, right over the top of him.

I was pissed at myself before I even hit the ground.  I groaned in mid-air, knowing what was coming.  I hit just on the top of my kneecap, sending shudders from my hip to my ankle.  It felt like someone had taken a sledgehammer and hit my knee, trying to drive the kneecap to my shin. And there was blood all over my running shoe.  Reason number 47 why I could never be a nurse: I cry when I see blood. Anyones, but my own in particular.

Emmett whined and fluttered around, nosing my neck and arms, his ears back.  For a minute–well, probably five minutes–I really, really wanted to be angry at him. I wanted to yell at him and glare and make him feel bad for tripping me.  But we’ve been working so hard on heel, both walking and running, and he’s been soooo good lately.  And he was doing exactly what he was supposed to do, sitting at the intersection and waiting for my signal. Little did he know that my signal was going to come in the form of a belly flop on asphalt.

I left my house this morning feeling crappy, unhappy to be awake and really unhappy to be starting what seems like the never-ending workday. I was thinking about what I forgot to do yesterday, what I needed to do today, mentally checking my calendar…I was paying absolutely no attention to where I was, much less where my dog was.

I’ve been reading this book called Zen and the Art of Running by Larry Shapiro. Shapiro talks about the “right effort” or the concept of taking the negative, stripping it of it’s emotional connotations, and making it positive.  He also talks about the Zen concept of mindfulness, or being aware of the distinct feelings, one by one, that we feel and what emotions are thereby attached. By addressing these things, we unclutter our minds.

That’s what I need. I need to unclutter my mind.  To learn to be present in each moment, instead of that which happened yesterday or what might happen later today or next week.

I’ve always figured running was cheaper than therapy–I started running at a time in my life when I probably could have strongly benefited from some head shrinking, but thank goodness I ran instead.  Walking my dog for an hour every single morning has begun to be a similar form of therapy.  It is the time that I calmly, purposefully get my day in order. I bond with my dog, I listen to the cool silence at 6:30 in the morning.  I feel tranquil and…ordered…when I start the day.

This morning I started with a grudge. I was desperate to walk and be done, to get my day started so that maybe, maybe, the end would come sooner and I could recline on my couch quietly for an hour or so before I started again.

When I start my walks–or runs–with that attitude, bad things happen.  Emmett picks up on this weirdo energy and starts doing weirdo stuff. I fall. I step in dog crap. Or, worse, Emmett craps and my poop bag has a hole in it.

All these things could happen on a day when I’m calm and confident, too.

But they don’t.

So yeah. I get  your message. Unclutter. Slow. DOWN.  Take some time to not only not DO work, but not THINK about all the work that you’re not doing.

Be where you are right now.

All Work+Some Play=Sarah Loses Her Mind, i.e., Summer of Buried Treasure

I’ll be honest.  I haven’t had time in the last three or four weeks to read anyone else’s blog (sorry, friends) much less write on my own. Which is sad, because this is one of the top ten most fun things in my world.  Do not be afraid, I am not far…give me two more weeks and I’ll be back with a vengeance.  That said, just to keep you caught up on my world:

Here’s whats happened to me since we last talked:

  • half marathon numero dos.  With my favorite Seattle broads, Marilou and Maria. Super fun, Maria and I crossed the finish line together. I’ve never run with anyone else before–save three miles every so often with Mr. B–and I quite liked it.
  • half marathon numero tres: October 2.  Training in July and August, super fun.  So far I’ve not made it through one run without wheezing and walking. Seriously, it’s like a vice around my rib cage and a noose around my neck, this humidity.
  • interning. interning. interning. free. interning. free. interning. driving. interning.
  • writing grants, learning to anyway. I’m taking a class. We are graded based upon a group project wherein we write a letter proposal for an organization. It’s exhausting, all this wordsmithing.  And yet…I like feeling like we’re getting something done for an organization that could really use it.
  • working, working, interviewing, coding, interviewing, data, data, coding data.
  • mixin’ up scents at Makes Scents–come see me!  It’s like cooking, but with smelly good stuff.
  • tryin’ to write more. See me here:
  • I’m a mystery reader now, thanks to Sarah B-J.  A whole new world of fiction just opened up to me. I just finished this one: And, I’ll have you all know, I’ve now read more books this year than I did in all of last year….28 to be exact.  Take that, master’s degree. I’ll see you’re reading list and raise you some before bed reading.

Wow. It is time for me to retire…this is what happens when good little girls work to hard…they start sounding like imbeciles.

Please stay tuned. I’ll be back.